#and for some reason it gets 100x worse when i go to work

[a-little-monotonous]

guess I'm stuck with the caffeine diet no matter what I do

[bomber-grl]

Leo Valdez relationship hc♡

₊˚⊹Pairing(s): Leo Valdez x Gn!reader (no pronouns/no specific godly parent)

₊˚⊹Warning(s): Some cringe things so proceed with caution ����

If you thought he was annoying he gets 100x worse

Like you know that one friend that gets a lil too comfortable around you?

Yea well that’s him except he’s your boyfriend

Now, I kinda sorta imagine diff sides of him as ur bf

So the most obvious way is him acting annoyingly clingy and such

He’s always cuddling up to you, calling you cringe nicknames/pet names, and just being so clingy and affectionate

Not that you hate it

He’s so sweet too, like he knows he’s annoying and stuff but for the most part it’s just to tease or mess with you

And when it comes to the more emotional part of the relationship, he’s there

You can only guess it’s because of how he always tries to hide his true feelings behind jokes and humor

Due to your relationship you two began getting closer and thus conversations of his true feelings and thoughts were revealed along the way.

So it just makes you sad that not enough people realize how sad and miserable he can be sometimes.

The reality of this slaps you in the face when you accidentally stumbled into him bawling his eyes out and very obviously going through something serious, then starts laughing and throwing out jokes at his own expense

Like why??

All you could think of doing was hugging him. Really settled in stone that y’all are 4lifers

Continuing from that, he really does like you

Like all his life he was literally “the other woman” in the sense that no one ever wanted him back.

So once you return his feelings he’s bamboozled

He genuinely takes a step back and tells you to stop joking around.

That’s how bad it was

Well, because of how taken back he was he not only made jokes but eventually realized there was no reason to use them as a cover anymore and just hugged and thanked you.

Yea, thanked you for liking him

Most times you enjoy each-others company in either your cabin, if not in bunker 9

While you’re just chilling in there practicing or doing whatever and him just working on a project he asks what makes him so attractive to you

Of course he drops jokes like “ofc I’m super sexy” or “how could u resist me?”

But when you ultimately tell him what you liked about him and how cute you found him-

He flusters

Badly

How easy it is to fluster him is one thing you absolutely love about him

He’s always getting overly cocky and flirting with you like there’s no tomorrow while dropping the most down right horrendous pet names known to man

(Ex: pookie wookie bear, sugar booger, etc)

Most times when Leo would flirt with girls in the past they’d ignore him and basically look down on him. ( which we all know)

Well when your lovely ass comes around he does the same routine

But unlike before, you actually reciprocate this flirting

And he combusts on the spot

*leo exe has stopped working*

Quite literally

He’s so unused to his affections being returned it’s literally whiplash the second it is

Gets to the point where he’s so embarrassed from your constant harassing teasing and flirting that he covers his face and basically whines out, begging for you to stop.

What a simp

(This statement is quite literally acknowledged by everyone else too LMAOO)

aside from that, he’s super hot

Literally

Concerningly so, especially during the summer

And it’s the absolute worse

Not only do you have to worry over him potentially over heating and passing out -

But also worry about yourself passing out CUZ THIS MAN DOES NOT KNOW PERSONAL SPACE!!!😭😭😭

He’s always clinging onto you and it could be 100 degrees outside and he truly does not give a flying fuck

It gets to the point where you have to peel him off of you, or at least beg someone else to do so in your place

And then he pouts and acts upset like??

Would he rather you die of over heating??😭

Like sorry we all ain’t fire resistant 🙄

Your personality takes a whole 180 during winter

Sure, they have the weather controller dome at camp but during missions that’s when you cling to him.

He always just lets you because of how touch starved the poor guy is.

(You probably are too if we’re being real here)

In the case that the weather controller isn’t working and it starts snowing then you most definitely sneak him in your cabin or bunker 9-

(I firmly believe he would build beds or sum shit for y’all to hang there and eat snacks)

And y’all would cuddle. You’d be warmly tucked under the sheets away from the harsh winds and hearing nothing else but each others breath.

Going back to physical affection in your relationship- home dude would be stressingggg

He’s be so nervous and his heartbeat would speed up anytime you’d hug and hold his hand.

Again, he gets way clingier and once y’all kiss there ain’t no going back.

He’s stuck to you forever.

If you ever want to cuddle or sleep in the same bed as him for a “sleepover”-ish thing then best believe dudes gonna be the worst sleepover- partner??

Just imagine this-

Leo, you ,both laying side by side under warm sheets on a dark winter night.

No light besides that of the moon and y’all have been pretty intimate and emotional. Just getting to know each-other on another level

Finally you’re falling asleep, your lids are drooping and you breath calms down after Leo shed a few tears.

Then all you hear is-

“Bro imagine if-“

Literal slap to the face

Like you can’t tell me he doesn’t say the most random shit and stops yall from actually sleeping. Literally has y’all giggling and shit all night.

If you’re in your cabin and you have siblings- they literally tell you to shut the fuck up and be grateful they let ur lil boyfriend sleep there without snitching.

Like goddamn

Never have y’all once slept in Leo’s cabin because how how fucking weird his siblings are-

Anyway 🙃

Bro is always showing you off

He has you on his arm and always saying shit about how he pulled a baddie

Like, sir, you’re the baddie

Anyway

Best believe home dude spoils you

Like sure, sometimes he’s a lil broke but he’s always making and buying you little things

Which is honestly so sweet 😭😭

Especially when you react by cuddling him and just peppering his face in kisses

He’s glad to have you as his significant other

I mean in his own words

“All da ladies love Leo”

(Ofc replaced w a Gn term cuz I’m sure everyone loves Leo lmao)

[mochiimadness]

I wonder what it would be like for Splinter if he fell in love? This isn't an xreader thing, for obvious reasons. It's just a scenario I haven't really seen explored for his character, and I'm curious how you'd portray it.

Hello! I wasn’t sure which version of Splinter you wanted, so I did both! Also, I could write a splinter x reader if someone requested it (not sure what you meant by 'obvious reasons' /lh), I did not make this one a splinter x reader tho ^^

2012 Splinter

Oh Hamato Yoshi, a man of so little yet so many words-

It takes him a bit to actually fall in love

He is hesitant about pursuing another romantic relationship

Is genuinely traumatized from his last one

Rightfully so, he saw his wife die, daughter as well (or so he thought for years) all at the hands of someone he onced called his brother- only to get mutated soon after.

Yeah… not a very good experience…

But when he falls, he is absolutely devoted to his person

He is very formal, approaching his crush in a gentlemanly manner

Is kinda old fashioned

The type to bring flowers and open doors for his partner

When he was with Tang Shen, he ended up losing sight of what was important

And became very distant and dismissive

He knows better now, and makes sure to go out of his way to pay attention

He does still struggle though,

Often choosing to meditate over quality time

As his relationship grows, however, he becomes better at being present.

Makes sure to set time aside for his partner

He doesn’t mind doing whatever, but he does prefer quieter activities-

A drama show perhaps, or drinking tea together.

As he becomes more relaxed in his relationship-

His playful side emerges

And surprisingly- he can be very goofy

I mean- he has a cheese phone in a glass case. He chose that. It’s meant for serious emergencies- you can’t tell me he wasn’t making a joke about his current mutation.

He tells dad jokes- really corny ones too

And his laugh is a full-on belly laugh where he throws his head back

He enjoys making his beloved laugh,

Will sometimes even ask Michelangelo for any new jokes to tell!

Overall, he's very sweet, goofy and old-fashioned with his partner,

He is also incredibly protective- perhaps a bit over protective

But considering the fact that he and his family are being hunted down by the man who killed his last wife-

His over protectiveness is warranted.

Does NOT take chances- if his beloved is captured, he is going there and demolishing anyone who gets in his way.

Makes sure his beloved is okay, before taking them home to curl up and watch some old drama show

Cheese-sicles included.

Rise Splinter

This may or may not come as a surprise-

But I honestly think it takes him a while to truly fall in love with someone

I feel like he has some trust issues

Definitely has high walls when it comes to relationships

Being a popular celebrity back in day taught him a thing or two about letting people get too close

Most people were usually only after him for his fame and fortune-

Looking to use him to rise to the top themselves

So he made sure to keep a decent distance

Until Big Mama of course

Which only made his trust issues 100x worse.

If he were to fall in love again, it would only be after a long time

There needs to be a very strong, and very solid foundation of trust

He would like to avoid being locked up and forced to fight to the death again, thank you very much.

On top of his trust issues-

He has major abandonment issues

If he ever went through with trying to have another relationship,

There would need to be a lot of communication-

Lots of working on and assuring him that his partner isn’t going anywhere.

As for his behavior??

He’s very avoidant in a rather outgoing way

It’s kinda weird to witness actually

The second he realizes he actually has romantic feelings for someone- he’s panicking

Tries to avoid them but also makes sure to be nice

He’s nowhere in sight whenever his crush is around but if they happen to catch him?

He’s chatting up a storm, sitting them down for a cup of tea or some food

Casually handing them a slice of pizza and once their attention is on it

Poof- vanished from sight once they turn around.

Once he starts actually giving a relationship a try though??

Man is whipped with a capital W

THE BIGGEST SIMP EVER

Quality time??? Physical touch???? GIFT GIVING??!?!?!!

His crush is getting it all

Quality time is an absolute must, he always wants to be around them no matter what it is they’re doing.

Knitting? He’s there.

2am snacks?? He already has their favorite

Movie time???? He made sure his projector is completely repaired AND made the couch the comfiest spot ever.

Loves to cuddle and hold hands, generally likes to be in contact with his beloved in anyway he can

Will even wrap his tail around one of their limbs if his hands are full

*cough* or if he’s too lazy to move from his comfy position *cough*

And on top of that?? He actually has decent money from his time as Lou Jitsu

He can and will have his sons help him figure out online ordering.

His beloved is getting any and everything they want

Only the best for them, he makes sure to buy top quality items

A lot of the gifts are an eyesore to look at though- his personal taste is…. intense…

Thankfully, his family helps him out.

Overall a very attentive, but clingy, partner

Will proudly boast about his beloved to anyone who asks (or doesn’t)

Has one of those wallets with the long long photo strips

He shoves them in everyone’s faces

I hope you enjoyed!! Apologies for the long wait;;

[leonenjoyer69]

Do you got some angsty headcanons for Elias? Elias and anyone else?

Apologies that this took actual weeks to get to, but we're so fucking back (this is also an answer for @dustmint who asked the same >:3)

Okay, starting off, (I think I may have mentioned it before but who knows,) Elias is lowkey a workaholic, for many different reasons tho!!

First of all, out the gate he has that work ethic that Lanyon Sr. tried to encourage Robert to have. Elias has to keep himself busy somehow, so why not get things done? Like previously stated, he has more of an affinity for all the doctory stuff Lanyon learned, so he tends to play doctor for the society. Otherwise, he also helps Jekyll with paperwork, no matter how boring, because the light thanks he gets at the end makes it worth it.

Secondly, and back onto the keeping busy part, Elias is restless af. Being more emotional and such, he's very prone to over thinking and spiraling over things- thinking he's not enough, or that people hate him, etc.- and gets overwhelmed by his thoughts quite easily (think like Hyde in Shatter me!, when he's getting chased and such, his thoughts becoming more base and fearful.), he's generally able to hide it though. When he's around Jekyll/Hyde these thoughts tend to go away, and when he's actively working or being praised/complimented for his work, they also tend to calm. So, when Jekyll/Hyde are unavailable and Lanyon let's him take over (usually after much nagging, bribery, or pleading) he buries himself in work. Whether that be medical research, paperwork, cleaning, or anything else he can do to keep occupied, he doesn't really care.

Because of this excessive emotional instability and restlessness, Lanyon tends to snap at him a LOT when they're alone together, Especially because Elias avoids going into the subconscious as much as possible. Being outside with only the presence of his other half? Overwhelming and usually not great, but being completely alone and numb in the subconscious? 100x worse to him. After the first time Lanyon finally bullied Elias into the subconscious, he came back a couple hours later near hysterical. after that debacle, Lanyon just decided that Elias bugging him and floating around with minimal breakdowns and complaining was better than having to deal with that again.

Also, Elias is absolutely obsessed with Jekyll and Hyde. Practically codependent, he's like a puppy. He yearns to be around either of them at basically all times, and when he isn't he, of course, becomes super restless and lowkey depressed. Also, the thoughts that tend to mess him up the most are ones related to them, like Jekyll or Hyde actually hating him, or thoughts of something horrible happening to them, like getting caught or hurt, or even killed.

There are times though where he's able to sit and think without absolutely spiraling though. Usually when he feels this sort of emotional content, he'll go to a park and climb up and sit in the trees (usually at night, to watch the sky). These tend to be the nights where Lanyon and Elias have more of their heart to hearts, since Elias is more mellow and less likely to get emotional. Also, any trinkets or gifts from Jekyll/Hyde tend to soothe him a decent bit, as well as wearing or cuddling up with any stolen clothes.

Those heart to hearts don't tend to help with their constant disdain for each other though. Elias wants to constantly be in control and occupied and around Jekyll/Hyde. Lanyon, of course, also wants to be in control, because he does NOT like having that control stripped from him, especially when he's forced to watch his other half live the life that HE wants. They tend to fight for control a lot, and quite quickly have accidentally done half transformations multiple times ( I actually have a fic idea for this teehee :3). Otherwise, like previously stated, Lanyon is VERY jealous of Elias, for many reasons-- His work ethic and the praise he gets, how forward he is with Jekyll, how much more people seem to enjoy his company than Lanyon's, things like that.

Quick thing for Jekyll and Hyde too! Jekyll tends to get a bit self conscious when Elias gets touchy, mainly because he's half convinced that no part of Lanyon really loves him and that he's just gonna get used and heart broken again, despite how utterly romantic Elias acts (which Jekyll still tends to absolutely eat up). Hyde doesn't have such qualms, he absolutely thrives on all the physical contact and kissing and such. The romanticism tends to throw him off though, makes him super flustered and kinda makes him shut down a bit.

Okay! That's all I've really got for now. Once again, sorry this took so long 💀 if there's anything more specific or questions about how he would react to specific situations perhaps, feel free to send an ask, my inbox is always open, even if it takes a minute for me to get to it 💀

[eddiegettingshot]

thank you for your posts which has helped me get a handle on my own feelings about the ep and that one of my big issues was feeling like buck not immediately apologizing on the court or at any point afterwards was so out of character for him.

like i think i'm not even as bothered by the shove itself as some people. maybe it's because i'm into sports generally but i get a heat of the moment emotional shove during a basketball game, like i'm not excusing it but i get it.

but the buck who post-lawsuit was chasing after eddie's forgiveness and attention would not go radio silent and not even reach out to his best friend after doing something like that. i just don't buy it.

i’m glad that my ranting has resonated with you! and yeah, totally valid re: the body checking, i think part of that for me was also that it was just like. viscerally weird and upsetting to watch buck decide to chase EDDIE (eddie!!!!!!!) down and then… do that. to EDDIE. but obviously different interpretations and all!

his response in the aftermath was what was just completely unacceptable to me, especially if we’re supposed to believe that everything he did in this episode was actually about tommy—because as much as everyone is enjoying their buddie speculation, this reading (and it IS there once the buddie goggles come off, that’s the way they WANT you to read it) suggests that buck actually doesn’t really give a shit about eddie at all, at least not when someone shiny and new shows up. and that’s… not buck. that’s so out of character for buck. it’s DISRESPECTFUL to buck’s character, even.

because, like. buck says multiple times that he feels bad, and people seem to buy it generally and think that his conversation with maddie was proof. except for the fact that when buck feels bad, he doesn’t avoid things. he runs headfirst into them trying to make it better. you’re seriously telling me that if buck had actually caused eddie injury—and let’s not forget that it could have been bad enough to bench eddie from work, they just got lucky—he wouldn’t be over at eddie’s house day and night, trying to make things easier for him? sure, maybe he was in shock at the court (i don’t buy it for a second lol) but what about in all the time afterwards? buck, in general, has never cared about whether people want him there, but now it really matters that eddie might be upset with him, and he doesn’t take a second to think why eddie would be when he’s never upset with buck for things that aren’t his fault? and this thirty-two year old man needs not one but two people to teach him lessons that actual children should already know?

the conversation with tommy makes everything 100x worse to me because, aside from the whole thing about exclusion being secondhand embarrassing, the fact is that buck still hasn’t said a word to eddie but is able to make jokes about it. for some reason, he needs tommy—a guy he might like but has known for a week—to TELL HIM to call his best friend. it continues to be absurd to me that they chose to have these two flirting over buck hurting eddie. and on tommy’s part, any rational grown person should have been like, “it’s kinda weird that you did that to my friend i really like who’s also sooooo important to you that we’re gonna talk about how great he is for 2 minutes.” not “oh that’s so charming and i want you.” sorry 🤷🏾‍♀️

when we only had the script leak, i assumed that buck did apologize in the moment for whatever he did and then withdrew, or that there would be a scene after he spoke to maddie where he apologized. but now it’s obvious that they couldn’t have shown buck’s normal response to doing this to eddie because it was all in service of him having his moment with tommy. so because they used eddie and buck’s friendship with eddie as a plot device, they ended up assassinating buck’s character and regressed his development to a truly ridiculous level.

i maintain, and have maintained since before the episode came out, that this was the worst possible way to go about this arc. and it’s weird to me that we’re just glossing over it to be like, well they were talking about eddie! they were talking about christopher! tommy is like eddie! well, yeah, sure, but buck treated eddie like dog shit, and i’m pretty sure he’s not gonna grovel about it. so. like i keep saying, i’m very glad that bi buck is canon and i think it’s important, but i can also think that they fucked up the execution and that i hated it and wanted better for a character i really do love.

[infinitelystrangemachinex]

once again losing my mind over hotd's writing bc just when i think they finally nailed it, it turns out it's 95% okay to pretty good, and then that last 5% is absolute dogshit to the point that it threatens the entire script with utter mediocrity. every now and then an actor will talk about how much freedom they get during a scene which is great, but how does that work when the writers and showrunners seem 100% aligned with some actors in some scenes, leading to alignment with the audience as well - and sometimes, it's like the writers showrunners and actors are all living on different planets.

like you want this thing with alicent and cristy cole to be this seductive intrigue, but meanwhile the audience is still wondering how the hell we got here. we have alicent hightower who is so tradcath she couldn't imagine a worse fate for a woman than being "sullied" out of wedlock when she was a teenager, she cared for viserys but had no passion for him (had no passion for anything besides her own children and her own trauma tbh), you cannot convince me that she ever thought of sex as anything pleasurable or even remotely intriguing after the life she has led, and we're just expected to believe that she has a spicy affair with the lord commander of the kingsguard? the thing is, i could believe it. but like, you've gotta put in the work to make that happen. you have to write it down. you have to tell us how we got here. subtext doesn't just materialize out of thin air, subtext is part of writing too. there's a reason why when you read asoiaf, everyone who reads it picks up on the same subtext at the same time, because it is put there on purpose, not just assumed that everyone will come to the same conclusion about some vague noncommittal strokes.

it was bad enough that rhaenyra and daemon had hardly any dialogue in season 1 about their relationship, but they still made it work because they at least got the screentime. the worst part is that the weird close-talking alicent and cole did in season 1 was 100x more interesting than whatever is going on here. like fabien frankel correctly interpreted cole as absolutely dead inside beyond anything that has to do with rhaenyra (onto whom he projects all his embarrassment and fear), olivia cooke is doing her absolute best to keep alicent rooted, and the script is giving them absolutely nothing besides instructions to look at each other meaningfully and it's giving absolutely nothing, idk, and they don't even really do that bc they still don't show cole's face much. what is even going on here

same issues now with rhaenyra and daemon bc the showrunners say "they've got each other's backs" and we can clearly see with our eyes that daemon does not have rhaenyra's back. and rhaenyra lets him do whatever bc she can't control him and for no other reason. this is, in fact, far from the first time he has abandoned her in her hour of need, and far from the first time he has broken a promise to her. rhaenyra's dialogue is relegated to stating the obvious and telling us exactly what she is thinking at all times, while daemon's dialogue is either thin or nonexistent because since season 1, the writers have interpreted "morally gray" as "we will not write down his motivations bc you have to decide his motivations for yourself." which is not only not what morally gray means, but it's also why the audience is at best completely confused about who daemon is as a character.

[romanianradfemmefatale]

wanna give a different perspective on the gym thing. my old gym was tiny, and i was the only woman there 99% of the time. despite that things were mostly okay for like 10 months, me and the men just politely ignored each other, didn't talk beyond hello/bye and asking if someone is finished on a particular equipment. sometimes they'd talk about women in a way that made me uncomfortable (nothing overtly horrible, tho i'm sure they would have said 100x worse things if i wasn't there), but i never heard anyone talk about me. the men were all chummy w/ each other despite being from very different age groups (anywhere from 15 to 60+), but it didn't bother me to be 'left out', i didn't go there to socialize lol. i also paid a lot of attention to not work out in clothes that could come across as revealing. so no leggings, tight shorts, crop tops, etc.

the issue was when some new guys came and one of them started being very weird towards me. imagine this huge disgusting roided up male, like trenbolone in human form, artifically tanned to the point he was basically dark red. he and his friend would yell all the time, leave equipment everywhere, etc. he criticized my form on exercises i had a perfectly good form on, and was just generally being annoying and disrupting. the worst incident was when i was doing OHPs, completely able to handle the weight, and he came up BEHIND ME and grabbed the bar on both sides to "help". i put the weight back and got out of there so fucking fast. after that i deliberately tried going at times he wouldn't be there, but it just wasn't convenient (and when i went super early there was always this old guy trying to talk to me), so i switched to a new gym.

the new gym is a lot farther away and a bit more expensive, but it's way better equipped, has more space, and most importantly i'm never the only woman there. depending on the time of day, it's anywhere from 30-70% women, and that makes for a much better atmosphere imo. the only issues i had there were men trying to step in when i'm benching. i love powerlifting, and can really grind on the bench (love me a good grind lol), and i can also safely fail it, if it's not coming up. despite this in the past 2ish months, i had 3 instances were men trying to step in (in this case to help genuinely), when i was benching, or putting back the bar after safely failing an attempt. i just tell them i'm fine, although one time i snapped at someone (apologized afterwards) bc i was in a middle of a grind, and i was afraid the guy would unbalance the bar and cause an accident. i ended up making the lift luckily. actually at my old gym something similar happened, was taking a 25 kg plate off the leg press, could handle it, but some guy ran up to me to help, and by grabbing the plate he unbalanced me so much that i almost dropped it.

genuine help at the gym is a good thing ofc, if someone has a bar on their neck, or is struggling to get it off their chest then it's a 100% good thing to help them out, there have been deaths from both squats and benches bc people were lifting alone without safety measures. still it's a bit annoying when people try to step in when it's a weight i can handle/safely fail, and i do think it happens more to me because i'm a woman (and somewhat skinny looking, compared to men at least).

anyway sorry for the super long rambling ask lol, just wanted to share my experiences (vidéki/kisvárosi magyar szemszögből, nem tudom romániában milyen a helyzet pl). i think if you can find a gym where there's other women around, and you're never the only girl, then you'll have mostly positive experiences. no reason to be afraid of gyms in general, people are just there to work out, vast majority of them aren't going to judge or harass others. i really love going to the gym, and encourage other women to go as well. it's the best place to build muscle and strength, and i'm super happy to see more and more women and girls working towards getting stronger. as for me, i'm currently 7.5 kilos away from benching my own bodyweight, very close to a 110 kilo deadlift, and i'm not planning on stopping anytime soon😎

Woww nice progress and thank you for your perspective! I think it depends a lot on the gym and as you said how many women there are,being the only female sounds intimidating but I'm glad you found a better alternative,I'm guessing men are braver to be assholes if you're the only woman,just like how they are braver to expose their vile opinions online lol

Also sziaaa 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻!

[wufflesvetinari]

hello! i was blown away by your fantastic astarion/tav fic and this is how i found you, hope that's okay. :) you say dnd is about being a cleric to you, and i was wondering if you'd ever be open to expanding on that? i'm interested in playing a cleric in my next campaign, but i'm a little gunshy

(the fic, for reference)

hi yes hello!! i'm so glad you liked the fic, first of all, i had never written anything quite like it (essentially canon/oc fic. video game fandom is weird. i love it)

secondly i am so glad you've given me an excuse to talk about this!!! i love playing clerics for a few reasons. in order of simplest to most complicated:

1). on a purely mechanical level i love their versatility; that you can both deal heavy damage and protect your friends. i think the existence of Healing Word makes clerics 100x more fun than they would be otherwise, because then you can both attack and heal in the same turn. i am someone who LIKES feeling that responsibility for the party each turn, and feeling like each choice involves sacrifice: thinking through who can make it through the next turn without healing vs. needing it now, whether to remove a status effect (using a full action) or let it wear out, etc. you do get the fun of essentially fireballing your enemies while also doing powerful utility stuff (that plants the seeds for interesting character relationships too imo)

2). god the roleplay potential??? it's so good??? you have a very strong "type" you're playing against: the stereotype of a "person of the cloth" existing makes it twice as fun to be, like, a little nihilistic or a little sexy or a little angry, but always always driven by that core of Belief inside of you. all the better if the belief system doesn't naturally fit with the character's personality, and you have to reconcile those things. it builds someone complex

also like. roleplaying a cleric (or a paladin) is marinating yourself in the midpoint between human fallibility and divine "infallibility," wherein actually sometimes it's the human fallibility that needs to win out over the inflexibility of dogma. it's a bit warlock-y in that you are making decisions both for what the character wants to do and what they feel they MUST do per the voice in their head. but it's still flavored differently because, in theory, the cleric has opted into this for moral/belief reasons! and those reasons get to be challenged or reinforced through the campaign

3). world building! you get to parse out how a belief system works in the day-to-day. rn i have two clerics who are driven by a belief in how they need to ethically act in the world (lash as well as duna, an ornery old lady grave cleric--spoiler, they have very different definitions of "ethical") but also an alien cleric in a homebrew campaign whose gods actually dont give a shit about how he interacts with outsiders because that pantheon’s entire existence is built around protecting and saving one specific alien species. the decisions that cleric makes are going to be extremely different than the first two, but i'm always going to be thinking about how those belief systems affect his actions, and when he pushes back (and how much he is ALLOWED to push back).

ngl the psychological element is twice as interesting to me as someone who grew up in a religious environment. what do i appreciate about that kind of person that could be amplified? what Makes Everything Worse?

anyway i hope some of this was helpful!!

[claratyler]

hi i have yet another composing question if you dont mind. i would like to know what notation software you use. ive been told to upgrade to a paid software, specifically Dorico. i heard that sibellius is also popular but it's a nightmare to use

i dont mind at all!

I've also heard dorico is really good but for some reason, ive tried to download the free trial like 3 times and i've been unable to ever set it up. Like I cant even get the program to open ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. The only people i've met who use dorico have all had macbooks, whereas i'm on a windows laptop. Maybe thats why, tbh idk. If you CAN get it to work, I'd definitely recommend you try dorico, especially if your classmates and teachers also use it and can help you with any questions you have.

I use sibelius and it IS a fucking nightmare, but the reason it's a nightmare is because i'm using non-"traditional" notation, with graphic elements and the like. If the type of music you write uses solely standard means of notations, i'd go as far as recommend sibelius for you because it's quite easy to use.

Finale is another software, one I think I might migrate to, since i've been told it's less nightmarish that sibelius when it comes to non-traditional notation. This one's a bit old school, but i did try a free trial once and it seems to work fine. The reason i didnt stick with it is because all softwares have a learning curve, and for better or for worse, i am an expert sibelius user (even if some non-standard things are 100x harder that they should be) and i havent had the time to really sit down an learn a new software all over again.

So basically i'd recommend that

If you can, upgrade to dorico

If dorico doesn't open for you as it didn't with me, upgrade to sibelius if you use purely standard notation

And if dorico doesn't open for you and you also plan on using non-standard notation, upgrade to finale

[hannahsmusings]

Carlos

*Carlos couldn’t help but laugh at Charles’ insistent protesting, that being the one clear sign that he did probably have feelings* It would be stupid, but that doesn’t mean it’s not reality. *Carlos smirks, shrugging as he walks over to his sim with Charles, needing to poke the bear, Charles was like his little brother and Carlos felt the urge to make this entire situation 100x worse for his friend since that’s what friends do, plus he wanted Charles to admit that he definitely had a crush* She is hot… and you know, it’s not actually in any FIA rule book that drivers can’t have relationships with their drivers… it’s insanely inappropriate, probably looked down upon, and not something that happens very often… but if you aren’t gonna pursue anything, could I? *Carlos looked up at Charles with the best faux-innocent eyes that he could, wanting to see how his friend reacted to this*

*I was in my office, trying to go over some emails and spreadsheets that had been sent to me, having so much to do and yet my stupid hormonal brain kept going back to a wet and half naked Charles, and even worse, it kept going back to our banter and our back and forth* *I knew liking a driver was wrong, he was technically below me and it was a power dynamic that no one would be comfortable with if they found out, but there was just something about him, something that sparked my interest from the moment we locked eyes the night before, it was easy to ignore when I thought he was a massive prick but now seeing this other side of him, the playful and kind and sweet and endearing side, it was impossible to put the 2 different versions of him together, so my brain just kept hyper focusing on his good attributes, like him with that little kid, his pretty smile and bright green eyes, the way his cute little eyebrows furrowed when he was confused by English which seemed like a near constant occurrence* Fuck me. *I grab my desk phone and dial down to the mechanics in the garage, figuring that maybe if I can talk about Charles and his urge to get in the car, I’ll stop thinking about him so much and manage to get some work done*

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*I knew I’d overdone it, Carlos’ laugh just sealing the deal as he looks at me like he doesn’t believe me one bit and honestly, neither did I, I’d never felt I had to work so hard to deny something before but I could not accept this, it wasn’t me to have a crush, I did casual sex and flirting and that was it, convinced it was because I’d not been able to follow through with you and that’s the only reason you were lingering in my brain, wanting to get you out of my system* *looks up in intrigue when you say it wasn’t against the rules, wondering if you’d ever be game for a quick hook up so that I could be done with you* It’s not? *asks curiously, thinking it over for a moment with a furrowed brow before my head whips back to Carlos again, narrowing without even realising and my jaw clenching as my stomach twists uncomfortably, quickly schooling my features to one of unbothered and cool and collected, looking at you* You want to pursue something? Is she really your type? *cocks a brow, trying to appear unbothered but there was a slight strain in my voice, the idea of him hitting on you made my body flare with heat, it being such a strong response as I try and think of anything I could say that would warn him off* You like blondes, no? *asks, knowing our types were so different and it was part of the reasons we could wing man each other, desperate to know whether he found you attractive now so i could sense whether I’d have competition*

[wendytestabrat]

opening up abt the past 2 weeks

so basically the reason why i hadn’t been active lately on here is bc i was like SUPER busy with a full time job but i just went through something really awful it’s like the universe decided to dump a giant nuclear bomb on me but when things like this happen i always try to tell myself that it’s all for a reason, bc god likes to redirect you. so like i got EXTREMELY sick with the flu for days, and i’m still even having some lingering symptoms now but i do feel way better, it was so bad that i was crippled and could barely get out of bed bc i had like 0 energy, so then I couldn’t go to work. i’ve been concerned abt my immune system lately bc i’ve gotten sick like 57382929 times this year, i’ve been constantly sick on and off but i still pushed through it so i could go to work and bc i needed $$$ and bc that’s what professionalism is all abt you work till you’re on your death bed PERIOD. i’m strongly against the lazy entitlement culture that libtards have created today where no one wants to work anymore but that’s a whole rant for another time lol i think i talked abt it in my rant on “Dikinbaus Hot Dogs” which made fun of this shit. but yeah i’ve had BOTH the flu and covid this year and btw i can confirm the flu is way worse, when i had covid i felt fine it was basically just a tiny cold lol (but the effects of covid are different for everyone) when i had the flu like MY GOD i had never been that sick before in my life i couldn’t MOVE. anyways i just had to go on a tangent abt that to further prove my point abt the dumbass media scare abt covid DHJSJS, but that’s not why i’m talking abt this. so yeah basically i feel like i was just forced to quit my job which i’m still feeling really sad and depressed about but I feel relieved at the same time because this was kind of inevitable and had to happen eventually. i think tho my body was just rlly tired and burnt out from constantly working non-stop bc i was working 40 hours a week with little rest and they wouldn’t let me take any time off, look i liked the job but the work life balance was NOT good lol. so i think i had just reached the final stage of burnout and my body totally collapsed on me, bc not getting adequate sleep and rest is not good for your immune system and can make you 100x more sick which is what happened to me.

at first i just missed like 3 days and i thought i would be good to go back to work but then more days were passing by and i was still feeling like shit and that’s when i realized i just had to quit. and then i was rlly beating myself up bc i knew i was gonna quit the job eventually but i wasn’t planning on just quitting the job cold turkey like this bc that never looks good to a company. i thought i would at least find a new job first and give them a 2 weeks notice bc i had made the mistake in the past of just quitting jobs immaturely before when i was younger so i rlly wanted to be an adult abt this this time, but it unfortunately worked out like this. but i feel like it all worked out for the best, because now i’m feeling good again especially that i have time to write again which i miss doing and now i can find a job more fulfilling. it was rlly hard but i had to keep myself calm through this whole storm to see the silver lining. just the other day when i took myself to the park to meditate and let off some steam bc i was so upset right when i finished i saw a rainbow in the sky after it was a dark and gloomy day, I really don’t think that was a coincidence. this was like the calm after the storm or the light at the end of the tunnel or whatever you want to call it.

[thevoidismyhome2000]

I have lived my whole life (23 years old) with mild-to-moderate hearing loss & hearing aids (got when 2 years old). I personally can hear most high pitches rather well, but can't hear most lower pitches. Ofc higher volumes of anything can be heard better than lower volumes. I had tubes in my ears until I was 16 that presumably helped with hearing, but they left me prone to ear infections if any water got in, and required special eardrops. Hearing aids add: Can't shower, sleep, or swim with hearing aids; Have to clean hearing aids fairly often to avoid them getting plugged up with earwax; Have to change the batteries often (the hearing aids give a little dying jingle to let me know when battery time is coming) I often have to ask people to repeat themselves, even with my hearing aids. However, asking them to repeat themselves frustrates everyone involved. I get frustrated over not hearing, even though I can do literally nothing about not hearing. They get frustrated from repeating themselves or from lacking the patience to help me hear. Accents make every challenge about 100x worse, and if someone moves their lips in an odd way, it can mess up any lip reading skills I have. Phone calls are a nightmare, due to the lack of lip reading usefulness, and the fact that sometimes it seems like people use tin cans and strings in this day and age. I prefer emails and text. Knowing the weather is very important, as if it's rainy, I have to wear a coat, and I can't own hoodless coats for that reason. My hearing aids (last I knew) cost $900 and I'm at the age where my Health insurance will only cover one hearing aid every 5 years (I need to get 2 new ones every 3-5 years) Sign language, to my knowledge (I know very little), has a different grammar and sentence structure than other languages, but I'd recommend looking this up because I'm not knowledgeable. Due to some shenanigans surrounding my mom and me having different mouth structures and my deafness, I ended up in speech therapy, and while I'm pretty well adjusted, I do have words that I still struggle on, due to both speed and sounding them out. Similar sounding words and sentences can mess me up when it comes to communicating, cause I can hear one thing but the person said something different. Due to my deafness, I am more sensitive to light, and more reliant on my eyesight. In highschool, a science teacher decided to show the fight-or-flight response by going to the back of the class and slamming a book on a desk. But I kept my eyes on him and avoided the scare, because of the way my brain relies on my eyes. I still get startled a lot, but I lean more on visual information compared to others. I know I mention my hearing aids a lot, but that's because without my hearing aids I legitimately would not be able to work at my job (Customer Service), or interact with basically anyone outside of my family and friends. I could use self-check, but it'd still be risky if the Self-Check Host decides to talk to me without my hearing aids. (Also, when using earbuds, I can't use hearing aids and vice versa, so I often end up completely deaf when biking to and from work) Fun Fact 1: The reason behind deafness is a bunch of little hairs inside your ear which vibrate when sound hits and transfer that sound into like electrical signals your brain can interpret and recognize as sound. These little hairs do not regrow. If they're gone, they're gone. If they're damaged, they're damaged for good. Fun Fact 2: When they say the decibles are 10x louder, what they actually mean is it's 10 times the original 10. Meaning the 10x louder thing is actually 100x louder (I think, but I would recommend double checking lol, it's been a while). Protect your ears. I noticed in the tags you mentioned your character would have moderate hearing loss. That means that, compared to my experience, they might have less pitches and such they can hear, or the pitches they can't hear at all. They will probably have a sense that is stronger, and have a larger reliance on one of the other senses. Hope this helps.

Deaf and hard of hearing people of tumblr, do you have any advice on how to create a character with hearing loss?

[anti-katsuki-lounge]

So when reading MHA fan fics I notice that a lot of writers tend to rework characters like Bakugo, Dabi, and Inko to the point where they are extremely ooc compared to their canon counterparts. But how come Mineta doesn’t receive that same treatment? Like so many writers will make Inko abusive, Dabi a caring brother who loves Shoto and his other siblings, and Bakugo as Midoriya’s protective super best friend. But why don’t they just do the same for Mineta and rewrite his character so that he’s not a perv? Because like the examples I previously listed, it’s not like they care about keeping characters close to their canon counterparts.

Whether for the best or worse, the fandom loves to either mischaracterize or reinvent characters. In some instances, like with Dabi, it can work as him still caring about his family sans Endeavor could make for some decent storytelling (honestly with Dabi I like both canon’s and fanon’s characterization of him for different reasons). Others like Inko being made into a bad mom or All Might being made into a quirkist idiot is people misunderstanding the characters and either is to prop other characters up (like how quirkist All Might is used to prop Dadzawa despite Shota being far worse of a teacher than All Might) and/or used for unnecessary angst. There’s only one or two instances where I’ve seen All Might painted in a negative light that actually made for some great storytelling, but otherwise it’s a dumb trope made by people who don’t get his character. Katsuki, being as “beloved” as he is, has people who have major BakuBoners for him, excusing his actions, making him into some sort of victim, and/or some amazing person. There are literal fics where Izuku is rightfully mad at Katsuki after airing out their laundry but 1-A is mad at Izuku for not wanting to forgive Katsuki. There is a trope I do like and it’s one where either Katsuki is childhood friends with Izuku and/or is neutral towards him. These fics tackle his inferiority/superiority complex in ways which make Katsuki actually feel human.

With Minoru, a lot of the fandom loves to write him off as an irredeemable pervert and they don’t bother fleshing out his character/giving him a redemption story of his own. This comes off as hypocritical to me because Katsuki is arguably just as bad, if not worse than Minoru. Katsuki attempted murder three times and tortured a boy for 10+ years. And no, I’m not undermining sexual assault. That shit’s vile and should never happen. What I’m saying is that we as an audience see Katsuki commit more crimes at a much larger frequency than we see Minoru commit his crimes. There’s also the fact that Minoru is also punished for his actions while Katsuki gets his dick sucked off 24/7. While Minoru’s punishments are certainly not severe enough, the fact he’s punished makes him 100x better than how Katsuki’s handled. He’s also a background character, so the narrative doesn’t bother to develop him much either, whereas with Katsuki the narrative sucks his dick and tries to tell us he’s developed, tricking people into believing that he has. Minoru is a character I want to go over in my other blog some time, but in conclusion, Minoru’s status as a background character and his problematic behavior are what steers most people away from him, hence why the “Minoru Mineta is expelled” tag is so popular. Meanwhile, Katsuki’s a major character constantly shoved down people’s throats and the audience is tricked by the narrative to view him as a complex character when he’s not, making people coddle/love him and are willing to put effort into redeeming him. At the end of the day, it’s their Fanfiction and they can do whatever they want, but it is a huge turnoff for me is when Minoru is expelled while nothing happens to Katsuki (or worse, his dick is sucked).

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 302: As the Todoroki Turns

Previously on BnHA: 

Today on BnHA: We have a very fun chapter in which (1) Shouto grows up lonely on account of his parents being worried that his siblings will literally try to kill him, (2) Natsu and Fuyu grow up neglected on account of not being special and/or self-destructive enough to attract attention, (3) we get to revisit all of that exciting spousal abuse from chapter 39, and (4) Touya burns to death right on cue, pretty much exactly like we expected it to happen. Thankfully since this is a shounen manga, Horikoshi finds some hope in all this misery as the Todoroki family rallies together, with Shouto getting his long-overdue credit for being a perfect sweet angel who put up with all of this shit for sixteen years and somehow came out of it strong and kind and empathetic and determined. Anyway, so that flashback was a barrel of laughs. But now that it’s over, we can put all of that angst behind us, and move on to... well I guess, probably, more angst. Look, we’re short on variety at the moment. Bear with it.

ouch. we knew this was coming, but still

A+ parenting move there. “ho boy, our eldest just tried to murder our youngest, now what? hmm how about we isolate our youngest from all human contact”

though in their defense, we probably shouldn’t have expected this rabidly strength-obsessed fire man and his wife who was groomed since childhood to obey her family’s whims to have any idea of how to raise stable, well-adjusted offspring

SERIOUSLY YOU GUYS

this is a perfect example of Enji’s tragically self-revolving viewpoint right here. just because being a hero is your entire world doesn’t mean you can just excuse yourself from anything outside of that and act like it’s out of your control. “alas, all I care about is hero stuff and my son can’t be a hero, we are doomed to inhabit two different worlds” no you jackass, it’s called having more than one hobby?? figuring out how to spend some time with your son that doesn’t involve training?? the same exact thing you were telling him to do last week, while ignoring that you’ve never done that yourself in your life??

that said, yet again we have that complexity though because it’s obvious that Enji at least on some level is aware of his own flaws, even though he seems unwilling or unable to confront them. honestly, from what we’ve seen so far, Enji’s obsession with surpassing All Might might be more accurately called an addiction. he literally can’t let go of it even though he’s fully aware of how it’s slowly destroying his life. and so in the same way that a lifelong smoker or alcoholic might tell their child to stay away from cigarettes and booze, Enji tells Touya not to follow down the same path as him, even though he himself doesn’t know how to leave that path. so yes, it’s hypocritical as fuck, but there’s also an element of helplessness there as well because Enji literally doesn’t know how not to be like this

though all the same he sure could stand to put in more than just a token effort. but it is what it is, and we already know how much he’ll come to regret it

and meanwhile Baby Shouto has frozen his sleep bubble with his quirk lmao. so I guess his quirk did come in early. that’s a recipe for chaos right there

once again Shouto is ruining every single dramatic panel in this flashback

this was so dark and intense... and then I spotted the lil bubs in the corner. Horikoshi please control yourself

“some hero you are, running away” and then all of a sudden, “FIVE YEARS LATER” lol what. OKAY THEN

(ETA: love the confirmation that eight-year-old Natsu comes from the Iida school of puberty and is basically a fully grown man, and meanwhile Touya comes from the hobbit school of puberty and has been perpetually eight for the past five years.)

“HEY BIG BRO WANNA COME RECREATE AN ICONIC FLASHBACK SCENE WITH US. WE’VE GOT THE SOCCER BALL RIGHT HERE, BUT HURRY UP OR WE’LL BE TOO LATE FOR SHOUTO TO WALK ON BY AND STOP TO LOOK”

lol and that’s literally the next three panels. but Horikoshi did add this extra bit after Endeavor starts to drag Shouto away

seriously Enji what the hell did you expect was going to happen here. “Touya went nuts and tried to kill his little brother out of jealousy, so let’s make it clearer than ever that Shouto is the important child and all the other children are just rejects. this will definitely not make the problem 100x worse, and will surely lead to Touya giving up and living a happy life, having been emotionally abandoned by the person he admired more than anyone.” good for you pal you figured it all out. no need for that plan b, “we all just go to therapy”

anyway so he’s telling Shouto he can’t play because he needs more endurance training. and meanwhile Touya’s patented Todoroki Drama Genes are going through puberty as well

definitely the face of a happy, emotionally stable child who’s not still plotting to murder his younger brother in his sleep

“WELL ACTUALLY MAKESTE” lol I stand corrected??

apparently during the five year interim Touya actually stopped blaming Shouto and realized Enji was the one at fault. good for him! a bit inconsistent, given what we know happens later, but I assume we’ll get to that in good time

anyway. “yeah man I agree that dad sucks, but it’s the middle of the night and I’m only eight and you’ve been monologuing for the past two hours bro”

LMAO

the manga is making my jokes for me, only better. fine then

looks like someone’s still miffed about that disagreement he had with his baby sister back when she was like four

“Fuyu doesn’t get properly riled up like I want her to so ranting to her is annoying.” okay but having been in Fuyu’s shoes, it really is just a different way of coping, and I can guarantee she’s not as fine with the whole situation as Touya might think. but making your peace with something is often a decision that’s made for emotional self-preservation reasons. and I sure as hell don’t fault her for trying to shut out a situation that she had no control over, and trying to make the best of it, and scrape together as normal a childhood as she could manage

and now in Touya’s defense as well, that is of course easier said than done, and I’m sure if there was a “push this button and instantly get over all of the trauma in your life” switch readily available for Touya then he would have pushed it too. unfortunately it’s not always that simple

so now Rei is pleading with Touya not to go train up on his little emo hill again, but it doesn’t seem like much has changed since he was eight

I don’t think he gives two figs about being a hero; he just wants his father to look at him again with pride. fucking hell, stop doing this to me you damn Todorokis

guh, they keep telling him the same thing over and over again

even if we hadn’t already known he was gonna go melt his jawbone off soon, I wouldn’t have expected a line like that to go over well

yep. fuck

that Todoroki puberty angst, though. nothing else quite like it

“you have a part in this too, Mom” ooooooh man

okay but look, he’s not entirely wrong. like, I’m not saying any of this is Rei’s fault at all! she’s in an impossible situation where she’s afraid to stand up to Enji (who by this point has shown that he’s willing to physically attack her if things get too heated, which is terrifying), and doesn’t really have anywhere to turn for support. her parents aren’t helping much if at all, and Japan in general is just a terrible country to be in when you’re in a domestic abuse situation. everyone’s expected to put on a brave face and deal with their problems all on their own in private. Rei is basically completely isolated at this point, and she doesn’t know what else to do, and so she’s just trying to keep the situation as stable as possible for the kids

but on the other hand, “for the kids” is also where that argument starts to break down a bit, because at this point Shouto is also being physically abused by his father, and the other kids are continuing to be neglected (emotionally if not physically), as they have been for years. so the situation really isn’t stable at all for them. and as a kid, what you end up learning in that type of situation is that you can’t rely on either parent. not the abusive one, certainly, but also not the other one who can’t protect you from any of it. even if they love you and they’re trying, they’re just as helpless as you. Rei is struggling to deal with all of this with one hand tied behind her back, and I get it, and I’m not blaming her at all. but all the same, particularly given that she’s (understandably) putting almost all her focus on Shouto, the end result is that the other kids have basically been left to fend for themselves

so yeah! a shitty situation all around. and one of those cases where it’s not really anyone’s fault (aside from Enji’s), but I can understand the resentment Touya is feeling all the same. and I’m so glad Horikoshi is acknowledging this, because it’s something I probably would have been too uncomfortable to bring up otherwise. as it is it’s still an incredibly heavy subject, and one that I probably have too many personal feelings about

anyway, so once again the whole “we’ll try talking to him and then just shrug our shoulders when it doesn’t work” parenting strategy doesn’t really pan out for the Todoroki fam

sob this boy is Anakin Skywalkering before our very eyes. all that’s missing is AFO to come and start whispering in his ear. any minute now...

“anyway so then he got taller and his fire changed from red to blue”

guess we’re getting pretty close then huh. this is the part of the flashback that I really don’t want to see, but also unfortunately the part that I’m most curious about :/

oh for fuck’s --

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN IGNORING HIM FOR FIVE YEARS DIDN’T ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM” sob. back to the drawing board I guess

I thought he got taller, why is he still only like a third of Enji’s height here

oh fuck me these are armor-piercing feels. this is the heavy artillery right here

ENJI I’M BEGGING YOU PLEASE STOP AND THINK FOR ONE MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE BEFORE DOING SOMETHING YOU’LL REGRET FOR THE REST OF ALL TIME. your child just told you that he still thinks beating All Might is the only thing you care about, and that he believes his existence is a mistake unless he finds some way of doing that for you. please stop for a moment to contemplate that and choose your next words with care and grace and oh who the hell am I kidding

-- OR WE COULD JUST BLAME REI

go on and blame everyone but yourself then!! that’s a great solution!! jesus christ man I know this is Endeavor at his literal worst but still this is fucking hard to watch

POOR BABY SHOUTO IS YELLING AT HIS DAD NOT TO HIT HIS MOMMY THIS LITTLE BRAVE BOY NEEDS SO MANY HUGS OH MY GOD

AND MEANWHILE THE OTHERS ARE HUDDLED IN THE NEXT ROOM TRYING NOT TO CRY AH FUCK

(ETA: Fuyu covering Natsu’s ears cuts RIGHT TO THE CORE OF ME. Horikoshi if you’re really not gonna get these kids some therapy then at least consider giving your readers some. what is this.)

you know it’s bad when you’re starting to think the part where the kid burns to death might actually be a less traumatic thing to cut to right now

holy shit, actual Rei thoughts

“I was the one who ultimately made that choice” well there we go, wonder if that’ll put that whole argument to bed at last. I doubt it, but you never know. actually who am I kidding it’s not gonna settle jack shit lol

oh thank god, they decided it was getting too intense and cut away back to the present to narrate this next (final?) part

get ready to cue up that Alicia Keys. THIS BOY IS ON FIREEEEEEE

yeah I think that’s one thing we can mostly all agree on. neither of them had any clue what the fuck they were doing pretty much at any point. though I will say that the hypocrisy of him being all “WHY DIDN’T YOU STOP HIM” followed by him IMMEDIATELY DOING THE EXACT SAME THING is a bit rich

(ETA: and he still has this problem, doesn’t he? he froze up when Ending snatched Natsuo, and again when Dabi was attacking Shouto. he’s so afraid of doing the wrong thing that he ends up not doing anything, which of course is exactly what led to Touya’s death. damn Enji I guess you’ve still got some additional character development to unlock.)

and of course neither of them could possibly have known how badly it was going to turn out. like, the consequences here were WAY disproportionate even for the shittiest of parenting. no one expects “I didn’t know how to talk to my son” to snowball into “my son burned to death and then somehow came back as a villain and murdered thirty people”

ohhhhhhhh fuck me

LITERALLY INCINERATED THE ENTIRE HILLSIDE. fuck. and I am so not ready for the scene of Enji finding the remains of his jawbone afterwards. at least we were spared anything super-graphic (for now at least)

I feel like the timeline here is off, btw?? wasn’t Touya’s death supposed to happen after Rei got hospitalized? this might be the first actual retcon of the entire flashback. although I think it makes more sense this way tbh

I do appreciate that ten years later Enji is finally reflecting on the fact that if he’d just given up his stupid obsession he could have stopped his family from crumbling apart. that probably sounds sarcastic as fuck, but it’s not. there are countless jerks out there who would have still managed to find a way to blame literally everyone and everything under the sun except for themselves. at least he finally figured out how to take responsibility, even if it came too late to stop his son from dying and being radicalized into a villain terrorist organization

and speaking of, it seems to me we’re missing a third and final part to this little tale of woe, and one which only Touya himself will be able to shed any light on. so we’ll see how that goes

oh man seeing the other kids blaming themselves even though none of it was their fault hits hard af. Rei wasn’t kidding when she said they’d been bearing that burden of guilt far longer than Enji

SHOUTO I SWEAR TO GOD IF THE NEXT PANEL IS YOU APOLOGIZING FOR BEING BORN, I WILL... WELL I’LL BE VERY SAD, I GUESS. SO DON’T DO IT

oh good he’s just being quiet. good. it absolutely is not your fault lil bean. it’s not theirs either, but feeling guilty about things that aren’t your fault is a time-honored shounen tradition

goddammit I braced myself for the angsty Shouto panel a page too early. gotta do it all over again now lol. okay here goes

;_;

well well well would you look at that

imagine that. talking things out with your child before they make a rash decision. looks like the Todorokis’ parenting skills are finally leveling up

OH MY GOD

holy shit. this is the most quintessential moment of father/son Todoroki bonding in the entire series. for me it even tops the “nice scar” scene lol. Enji sobbing at the fact that he still has a chance to set things right. and Shouto offering his hand in what is actually the most mature and selfless gesture I’ve ever seen, and being all “we’ll stop him together” to his dad who he hates, but also doesn’t really entirely hate anymore. and all of that is incredibly moving... BUT ALSO HE STILL REFUSES TO MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH HIM AND HE WOULD LIKE HIM TO STOP BEING SO FUCKING DRAMATIC ALREADY IF YOU DON’T MIND. “WHEN YOU’RE DONE CRYING...” fkjldsk

OH MY FUCKING LORD

(ETA: wouldn’t be a Todoroki drama fest if there wasn’t somebody listening in on the whole thing in secret just around the corner lmao.)

“you think we should have waited somewhere else?” “yeah, probably.” “are you feeling a lot of secondhand embarrassment too?” “god, you have no idea.” STFU HAWKS IT’S NOT EMBARASSING TO BE MOVED TO TEARS BY YOUR FAMILY ALL COMING TOGETHER IN YOUR DARKEST HOUR TO GIVE YOU HOPE THAT YOU PROBABLY DON’T DESERVE BUT ARE NONETHELESS INDESCRIBABLY GRATEFUL FOR

and anyway you chose these guys as your found family, bucko. too late to back out now. next time go get yourself adopted by the Iidas then

AND MEANWHILE NO WORD ON THE WHOLE “HOW DID A THIRTEEN-YEAR-OLD SURVIVE A FIRE THAT COVERED HIS BODY WITH HORRIFIC SCARS AND MELTED HIS JAW OFF, AND HOW DID HE SOMEHOW THEN MANAGE TO GO INTO HIDING FOR TEN WHOLE YEARS, AND WHAT HAPPENED IN THAT INTERIM TO CHANGE HIS GOAL FROM ‘SURPASS ALL MIGHT TO IMPRESS MY DAD’ TO ‘KILL ALL HEROES TO MAKE MY DAD SUFFER’.” as if we don’t know the answer to that. but still, would it kill Horikoshi to just confirm AFO’s involvement in all of this already. at this point it’s basically just a formality

so here’s hoping next week we’ll either get that, or more Hawks action, or (DARE I EVEN SUGGEST, I’M AFRAID TO JINX IT) finally cut back to Bakugou and Deku and All Might omg. either way I’m hyped

[padfootspuppy]

Regulus black headcanon:

He was a hat stall, but eventually his determination to prove his worth by becoming a slytheirn is what made the hat put him there

He was either not talking or sarcastic af

That’s why he didn’t make any friends at hogwarts and always felt out of place

That was until one day he discovered the kitchen house elves

He eventually became on a first name basis with all of them and would hang out in the kitchens in his spare time

They’d always prepare food for him and made sure he didn’t skip meals while working

However occasionally he’d eat with professor Slughorn

At the time, he was Slughorn’s favorite and reminded Slughorn a lot of Tom riddle

Regulus never spoke much while he ate with Slughorn

That was fine thought because Slughorn spoke enough for the two of them

notices EVERYTHING down to that bad hair day you had last summer

LOVES puzzles and riddles

Would sneak into the ravenclaw dorms when he was bored to try figure out the puzzle to the dorm

Though he’s never been inside the ravenclaw dorms

He is always cold for some reason and being in the dungeons makes it 100xs worse

He starts becoming close to kreacher in his 4th year when Sirius leaves him

Kreacher caught him crying to himself and he almost expected kreacher to yell at him for it

However when kreacher didn’t he found himself pouring his feelings to his house elf

After that he shut himself out for weeks in embarrassment because “real men don’t cry”

When he finally saw kreacher again, he was surprised kreacher didn’t tell anyone

Kreacher and him bonded over knowing what it was like to be neglected

When he was 9, he overheard his parents talking about how Sirius was sorted into gryffindor and how much of a disappointment Sirius was

That was the first time he saw his parents physically attack his brother and since then he tried everything to avoid having the same fate

That was when he started collecting posters on Voldemort

By the summer of his 6th year, he was recruited

He felt numb

He didn’t care

He just needed to impress his parents

Then the summer leading to his 7th year Voldemort asked for a house elf volunteer

Regulus offered up kreacher

He had no idea what the task was and didn’t dare ask

However days went by and kreacher was nowhere to be found

The task was only supposed to take hours

Regulus had a vague idea where kreacher was and set out to find him

When he found kreacher, kreacher was near death

He was suffering so much pain and agony

Regulus blamed himself for it all

That was the moment he realized

This wasn’t what he wanted

It was never what he wanted

To hurt people

To bash them for no reason

He needed to find out what that potion was for

At 17 he ran away and set out

It took him a year, but regulus eventually discovered horcruxes

He knew where the potion lay as he rescued kreacher from there a year earlier

He brought kreacher with him as they set out to the island

When regulus saw the potion, he freaked

Kreacher was freaking out even more

They both knew what it was

And they both knew someone had to drink it

Kreacher reluctantly reached his arms out to grab the liquid, however regulus stopped him

Instead regukus gave kreacher a command

“Feed it to me. No matter how much I resist.”

Kreacher’s eyes went wide

No one has done such a thing for him before

He knew that he would’ve taken the drink for regulus

He was used to this

But a wizard poisoning themselves so a house elf wouldn’t have to

Kreacher tried his hardest to disobey the order but he couldn’t

It was too straight forward

His hands moved on his own accord as regulus brought his lips to the drink

Regulus’s body felt on fire

He was in complete agony

He tried not to show his pain

But failed letting out a blood curdling scream

Then another

And another

And another

Until he had halfway lost his voice

He couldn’t continue

He begged and begged kreacher to stop

However nothing worked

He had no idea how he could continue on like this

He couldn’t

It was too much

He was too much of a coward to continue

However the drink kept getting shoved into his mouth

And he was forced to swallow every time

Until finally the bowl was empty

He could barely think

He was on fire

His lungs

His arms

His entire body

“Water-“

He hurried over to the water surrounding them when suddenly a hand pulled him in

Kreacher immediately came to his rescue and saved his master

Standing in front of the tall boy to protect him from the unknown kreacher

However regulus didn’t obey

He went past kreacher to the water

He needed to drink it

Just a sip

Yet again kreacher saved him

But this time regulus gave him a direct order

“Don’t move”

Kreacher tried to protest but it didn’t work

He stood still as he saw his master reach the edge and suddenly a hand grabbed him

It looks sort of human

Kreacher saw it all

The hand pull his master down

His master fighting for air

His master trying to reach surface

Then his master giving up

His body going limp even tho he still could physically fight

And then the air bubbles stopped

Minutes later the order to stay in place was lifted

There was only one way that could’ve happened

And it was all kreacher’s fault

If he had only drunk the potion first

Or found a way to save his master

Regulus would’ve been alive

And well

Kreacher didn’t waste much time dwelling on that

He knew he had to make regulus’s death worth something

So he took the note regulus had written and summoned it from the water, drying it off

He then placed the note and took the locket

He finally apparated out of the place

He’d seen it all

He’d seen the only person to ever care for him die in front of his eyes

And he knew in that moment

He would NEVER forgive himself

[n7punk]

Did you know apparently if you're "old" you're forbidden from enjoying anything? 🙄 One of the She Ra writers whose work I really like is over 40, and guess what, it's fine! People need to get over themselves and not be jerks lmao. Everyone should get some Legos and chill

I think some of the younger people in online fandom really have no clue what the average age the viewers of their favorite shows are, much less the average age of the fandom. the average age of the she-ra fandom creators, from every single creator's age that I know, is early to late 20s. of course there are teen fans, but remember, catra and adora's story was written by noelle, an almost-30 year old lesbian, and thus a lot of their love story is resonant with the experiences that queer people who are now in their 20s-30s have had, even if they aren't still the age that catra and adora are in the show (18-21). they felt similarly at that age and see themselves represented in the show, so they create content for it based on their own experiences.

if any age gap between creator and character is a problem, then these people should direct their dumb takes at the very concept of the entire genre of YA (which is predominantly written by adults), because if what I'm doing is a problem then that has to be a 100X worse since the age gap is even larger there (it's actually large enough to be called a gap), but I have an askbox so I guess it's easier to harass me 🤷‍♂️ They are holding young queer people (YES, 20s is still young) to a ridiculous standard that no one in the real world is held to, which is even crueler when you remember that the world is so harsh and exclusionary of queer people and our experiences already so we have nowhere else to be.

She-ra is honestly the first TV show where I saw my experience being queer accurately represented. these weren't just queer characters, but they also had queer experiences. of course i, and other queer fans like me, are going to latch onto it. these people are completely ignorant of the actual reasons age gaps can be problems and thus misidentifying any numbers that don't perfectly match up as a problem because they don't know the actual problems that arise from gaps are and thus can't identify them accurately. this isn't the way that the world outside of extremely insular fandom wank circles operates and i guess we just have to hope that they eventually gain enough experience to realize that.